To let go and move on? To stay and fight the struggles even when depression hits and possibly in the end be truly happy? To pretend nothing is wrong in the world and bring up the fake smile when you can? Idk, I’m weak …
Finishing my first year in college… Emotionally I have been mostly worried to the point that I get very depressed. Never had felt that much pain in my whole life. Now I know how it feels. I hope this summer and from then on, I can smile more and actually be happy like my senior year. It feels like an eternity in my first year…. Guess, the work load wasn’t enough, to temporarily forget my pain. :/
I keep changing my major. First, it was bio, then chem, then biotech, then maybe biomedical engineer. They are all sciences because I wanted to be a family doctor. Right now I’m not so sure anymore. I still have to think, what happens if I can’t go to medical school? Well there’s a separate school for PA. But, then after taking to my cousin today, I remembered I liked psychology and still do. I like how the brain functions for us to act the way we are. I am so glad that I had taken that Ap psychology course and made a 4 on that AP test. I was confident and actually enjoyed learning it. But I heard there aren’t alot of jobs for that major. Idk, I have to research and find out. I hope I will find an answer soon.
In Japan, there are 3 ways to say “I love you”:
You say “Daisuki (大好き)” for the friends and person you like,
you say “Aishiteru (愛してる)” for a more serious relationship,
and you say “Koishiteru ( 恋してる)” to the person you want to spend the rest of your life with.
And they follow this rule. They preserve the meaning of ‘I love you’ and never lose its essence unlike us.
Persistent guys can be annoying, especially when you have no interest to them from the beginning til now. How many more rejections does it take for them to understand that I don’t like them???!!!!!